Not How I Imagined
2:02 PM |
| My Morning |
Do you ever feel like a secretary instead of a mom or wife? When I began blogging, I thought hey this is going to be so much fun and easy. This is going to be my ME TIME!
I was sooooooo very wrong! Somehow, my blogging has gone to the end of the list. As soon as I sit at my desk everything else has to be done RIGHT at THAT MOMENT.
This morning the hubs awoke me at 7:30 am. I am usually awoken by a screaming baby by 4:30 5:00 am and she might go back to sleep and she might not. After doing my stretches, I rolled out of bed at 8:00 am! It has been eight months since this has happened. As quiet as a church mouse I trippy toed into my sleeping daughter’s room. There were no signs of her waking anytime soon.
UNCENSORED HONESTY: I wanted to do a jig that would have made my Irish heritage proud. Instead, I silently screamed YES in my head. Immediately a list of things to do went running on for miles in my mind. What to do first…bathroom my bladder screamed!
I enjoyed a relaxed pee without a little monster trying to lick the toilet or climb into my pants that laid around my feet on the pretty colored bath rug. Oh that is a pretty color, maybe I should get a shower curtain to match it and add more color in here….I actually had time for my mind to wander off the task at hand.
I made myself a cup of coffee without having to do the hippy hippy shake to keep little hands from touching anything hot. I walked to the living room to my little makeshift work center and turned on the computer. Sat down on my Yoga ball and went to sip my coffee…then…it…happened!
8:15 am: A scream from the bottom of her toes and heard throughout the house was had…My daughter has awoken!
Okay no coffee and no blogging yet!
I walked to the back of the house to find my daughter’s bright blue eyes looking straight at me with that funny look on her face of uncertainty. The look that says mom there is something wrong but I am not sure what it is.
Pulling her blanket off I figured it out! Guess who got to wash a car seat, a crib and a child! Yes, it was everywhere! Once the wash is dry, I will put the car seat back together and remake the crib. The child has been washed, dried, clothed and fed. Let the cycle begin again!
9:00 am: I put my daughter in her stationary bouncer next to my work center. I turn to the computer and see the list of things I need to complete today. I grab the phone to get started. I call the dentist as my husband is trying to call in. I end both calls to have the phone start ringing in my hand. My daughter’s early head start teacher is rescheduling as I am gather the papers, my husband needs to get his son’s Social Security Card and Birth Certificate for enrollment into Kindergarten.
9:25 am: Daughter is no longer happy in her bouncer. Let the crying and fussing begin. Time for a bottle, diaper change and a nap…And we have a fever….oh how mommy loves this teething craziness! Cuddles and fever reducer is warranted.
10:10 am: Baby is in her swing asleep. Oh, I have a cup of coffee. Its barely warm…oh well its caffeine. Time to make a shopping list for the hubs, and get the cloth shopping bags together, put a quarter in the bags for the shopping cart. Called the lawyer for updates and now I need to retype the court orders the way we need them.
10:50: Baby woke up. No blog work yet! Playtime on the floor but daddy forgot to vacuum this morning. Balancing baby from one hip to the other I clean the rug. Change the baby before putting her on the floor to play. I get on the floor with her to play with stacking cups and connector rings.
11:35 am: Baby is done with playtime; it is fussy and cuddles time again.
12:00 pm: Son is home from head start. A snack is given and he is back out the door with daddy to get needed papers to enroll in school and buy groceries. Baby is back on the floor playing with her dolly. I sit down to sip my coffee and baby decides it is time to play mommy jungle gym.
12:30 pm: Baby is back in her swing with another bottle. I finally get to sit down with my new cup of coffee..oh, wait there is no coffee. I call the hubs on his cell. “Um helloooo...NOT COOL MAN you finished the coffee!” His response “at least I turned off the pot!” Therefore, I Made a fresh pot of coffee, I begin shaking while making a few more appointment calls. Checked my blood sugar levels, ate a slice of banana bread. Now I am going to work on this post because today I feel more like a secretary than a mom and wife. Even as I type this up my husband has called me twice looking for information on things he is doing.
I find it interesting that when we think about being a mom we imagine cuddles, fun activities, play dates, etc. We don’t think about all the paper work, appointments, scheduling and tiny details. When we think about becoming a wife, we think about our version of the white picket fence, romance, and all the perfect time together. We don’t think about the struggle to pay bills, the upkeep of the white picket fence, life coming between us and our spouse or that those long moments of just gazing into each other’s eyes will become almost nonexistent.
As I sit here proof reading what I have typed I realize that my life is not what I imagined but it is so much more!
1:45 pm: Now I will get my fresh cup of coffee and look up Car Error Codes later.
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21 comments
Very true, there are lots of jobs that I didn't think about before I became a mum. Just trying to get my daughter a doctors appointment has taken countless phonecalls and googling!
ReplyDeleteI hear ya! I love when you go to a new place they tell ya what to bring, you do and then get told about something else you needed.
DeleteSo true! Excellent post, I bet a lot of people will relate! x
ReplyDeleteThank You! I'm sure I am not the only one who feels like this!
Delete(I popped over from the #brandnewday linky.)
ReplyDeleteYou describe the everyday mummy struggles very well! It is so hard to find time for anything when they are little and blogging does take up so much time. TY for linking up with #FamilyFun 🌸
ReplyDeleteThank you! I never thought blogging would need so much time.
DeleteOh this is so true. I can relate to so much of this! The juggling of mummyhood and blogging is tough but rewarding xx #FamilyFun
ReplyDeleteYes it is very rewarding. I love the blogging. I feel like I can vent to millions out there and keep my sanity.
DeleteI agree, life often gets in the way of parenting - and blogging! I can only write at night or occasionally when my baby naps. #StayClassy
ReplyDeleteI try to write in the am when one kid is in school and the other is napping. By time they are in bed I am exhausted and go to bed too.
DeleteAww bless you! I bet you get some cuddles in somewhere too!? I know how you feel though, I think that there are loads of jobs that get taken for granted, and the endless multitasking that we achieve! It's great to know I am not the only one out there! #abrandnewday
ReplyDeleteIt can feel like we are the only the only one dealing with the same issues as others. I think blogging has helped me realize I am not alone in some struggles.
DeleteThis is so true! When imagining motherhood and marriage, you don't really think about the monotonous day-to-day tasks: laundry and dishes, diaper changes and cleaning. But, as tedious as those tasks may be, you really hit it on the head when you said life is so much more! It truly is more than I could have ever imagined. I never knew my heart could be so full. <3 #StayClassy
ReplyDeleteI am right there with ya. I knew I would have love and be loved but it is indescribable how one really feels when we just breath and take it all in.
DeleteOh yes, there are certainly lots of little things that need doing - I have moments of feeling like I've become hubby's PA and I'm certainly the one in charge of the family calendar! Hope you managed to get cuddles and a warm cup of coffee (if not a hot one) in amongst it all - and the post is proof that you did manage a bit of blogging time too!
ReplyDeleteI did end up getting many cuddles and a fresh hot cup of coffee in the end while typing the blog.
DeleteTotally agree, it's more like being a secretary sometimes! I like how you have written this post as I don't think we share the details of what it means to be a mother. My little one wakes up at 5:30am too and I struggle trying to get him to sleep again, but when he does it is HEAVEN. Thanks for linking up with #StayClassy!
ReplyDeleteThank You! I reread this post and saw a real mom living a real day. I think that as the days go by with the same routine we frost over those tiny special moments until we rethink about the situation at a later time.
DeleteYou are not alone! Enjoy the cuddles and the down time too, things can wait! Thanks for linking up to #familyfun
ReplyDeleteOooh you are so right. The expectation versus the reality is so so different! But I'm impressed you got to blog in the day mine is firmly reserved for the evenings - he little ones dictate that rule not me. Your day does sound mighty familiar and yep teething is definitely the pits! Thanks for sharing this at #familyfun. Hope you can come back again next week xx
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